Reading through "The Mark of the Lion" by Francine Rivers has really made me reflect on what it looks like to lead a Christian life. It was while I was reading and reflecting on the third book of that series that I tried to unravel that popular saying "God is strong where I am weak."
I had often prayed before going into certain situations, where I considered myself weak, that he would provide back-up. I viewed God as a gap filler. I wanted him to come along to reinforce the sturdy walls I had made myself and relied so heavily upon. My own strengths had slowly become like idols to me without my realizing so. That fact scared me!
I came to realize that trusting fully on God looked very differently than I originally had thought. It didn't mean hoping that he would fill in the gaps. It meant that I needed to tear down my walls, humble myself, and know that God had it all under control so I didn't need to. Trusting in God's strength means getting rid of my pride and making myself a vulnerable servant, fully open to his will.
For through such trust am I able to go beyond anything that I would have hoped or dreamed for my future. So I will work to humble myself so that I can fully rely on God and his strength without my pride getting in the way.
